@lifewithranela
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@lifewithranela I’m 35, a therapist, and it’s hard to admit… 1. In the back of my mind, I sometimes wonder if I’ll be single forever & it’ll “probably” be because it’s my fault somehow. 2. I’ve quit a lot of jobs in my life. I feel so trapped in a 9-5, and I feel “weak” that I can’t tolerate that discomfort as well as others can. 3. I think I have ADHD? I struggle with time-blindness, being late, forgetting where I put stuff, forgetting to eat the food I buy and then it goes bad, letting my laundry go unfolded for days, struggle with motivation. 4. I sometimes hate being a girl. The periods. The mood swings. The spiraling thoughts. The being underestimated or objectified. I get jealous that men get to feel so consistently the same in life. It feels unfair. 5. I still wake up feeling like a failure, like I’m unworthy of self-love - often. 6. I sometimes wonder if my family looks at me and thinks I’m broken because I’ve always been “too sensitive”. 7. I’ve been the problem in relationships more than I’d like to accept. I’ve been avoidant, I’ve been anxious & I didn’t treated my partners with as much kindness and respect as I wish I had. 8. There are far too many times I give in to the “you’ll never reach your goals” inner critic … and I spiral and freeze and self-sabotage. 9. I’m not always so good at taking the advice I give to others as I want to be. And it makes me feel like I shouldn’t be trying to help others. 10. I sometimes wonder if I’m too focused on my goals and achievements and not enough on my family or building consistent community. 11. I still fear what people think of me, especially when I’m vulnerable. Will that mean they won’t respect me or see me the same way? I still get scared of being misunderstood. Vulnerability is tough. And I want to lean more into it this year, because I think true freedom comes from being honest & self-accepting in that honesty. I’m not perfect and I second guess myself a lot. I’m just a complex human who is doing her best ❤️🩹 Some days are better than others. And I’m choosing to keep trying, and keep moving forward, even on the days that are harder. I hope you do too 😘
