@livewellwithsophie
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@livewellwithsophie This sat in my drafts all week because this whole page is obviously about walking away and rebuilding your life. And part of me thought, can I really post a video admitting that sometimes I still question it? Because surely that would make me a fraud. But I’ve also built this page around being honest about both the good and the bad parts. And surely if I’m was feeling this way, there must be at least one other woman sitting there wondering the same thing. And if it makes her feel a little less alone, it’s worth hitting post. So for that woman, I’m speaking to you. There was a lot going on last week. It was my daughter’s birthday which I missed and she didn’t want to talk to me. They were on holiday without me. I’d forced myself on a date that went terribly and I just had a little wobble. And what I’ve learned is, it’s okay. We’re sold this idea that once you finally walk away, that’s it. You choose yourself, never look back and eventually become so healed that you feel nothing about the life you left behind. But that’s not true. At least it hasn’t been for me anyway. Especially around holidays, birthdays, when the kids are away or those little moments where you get a glimpse of the family life you thought you’d have. And weirdly, sometimes I think it can hurt MORE as time passes. Because at the beginning there’s still so much emotion and chaos. Then years pass, everyone moves on and you realise that chapter really is over. And theres a sadness in knowing not only wouldn’t you go back, but you can’t. I don’t think moving on means never looking backwards. Sometimes you can be really happy with where you’re going and still feel a little sad some days about where you thought you’d end up. ❤️
