Personal story about pregnancy body imagefrom @callherdaddy

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Recently, you kind of alluded to this low moment that you experienced during your first trimester. I'm kind of, like, on a mission to talk about this more because I obviously share so much about my mental health and everything I've walked through rank having PTSD and depression and everything I've gone through that. And when I talked about this, and I honestly didn't even, like, really share much, it was the most, like, DMs and messages from women I've ever received in my, like, entire time doing the Internet. Truly, it was so crazy how many women really feel that same way. And I think it's because we're not expecting our bodies to change as quickly, especially for me. So, like, first trimester, I have amenophobia and I hate throwing up. Like, I have a fear of throwing up. So every time I would get nauseous, I would eat. So I never threw up in my first trimester, but every time I was nauseous, I would eat. And so I gained, like, 12 to 15 pounds in, like, three weeks maybe. And so nothing fit so early on. I mean, I cried. I was, like, literally standing naked in front of the mirror. I think I was, like, about to get in the shower. And Taylor was in the bathroom with me, and I literally just, like, started crying. So you just don't recognize yourself. I was talking about laying out at the lake. I said something along the lines of, like, I'm just gonna be a big pregnant lady laying out tier. And he goes, no. You're just a pregnant lady. And I was like, oh, that's really nice. I was like, I need to talk to myself that way more. I think that's honestly the biggest thing, and that's something I keep trying to tell myself. And every time I don't, I just, like, smack myself on the wrist. But when I see other pregnant women, I've actually never thought, like, a pregnant woman was fat. I've never been like, look at her arms. Look at the cellulite. Like, I've never thought that, and that's all I see in myself. I'm really trying to, like, rework the mindset. I think it's hard too because you're so hormonal and you can talk with people. Obviously, I think having my girlfriends that are pregnant too has been nice to be able to talk about, but there's so many things that I no more now, and it's something that I've never really struggled with to this degree. And so it's been just a really unique experience to try to walk through it and try to also walk through it somewhat rationally because there's no rationale.