Car monologue about losing respectfrom @sensei.nick

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I tend to lose respect for people best, and it's not random. I've noticed a pattern with myself. If someone doesn't meet a certain standard, something in me drops. It's very quick, and it's not even already being crazy. Usually, it's just the basic stuff, like following through, being consistent, and saying one thing and doing another. Things that in my head are just normal. So when someone misses that, it's not just like, oh, that was off. It feels like I just learned something about you. And once I see it, I can't really unsee it. And that part, people might misunderstand about me. I'm not reacting to one moment. I'm thinking about what that moment means because I don't really look at behavior as random. It's more so a pattern to me. Like, if this is how you move here, where else does this show up? And now I'm I'm not just looking at what you did. I'm looking at what this leads to, and that's when the drop happens. Because in my head, I just updated who you are. And it's not from an emotional standpoint, but more so logically. Like, I thought you operated one way, but now I'm seeing something else. And I don't like building around uncertainty. I don't like guessing, and I don't like hoping someone tightens up later. I pay attention to what's real, and what's real is how you show up, not what you say, not what you meant, and not what you could be, but what you actually do. And once that doesn't line up, it's hard for me to keep seeing you the same way. Now I will say this. I know this can be a blind spot because not every moment is a better, and sometimes people just have an off day. Sometimes context matters more than I give you credit for, and I'm working on that this year. Slowing things down a bit and not jumping straight to a full conclusion. But at the same time, I'd rather adjust quickly to what I see than ignore it and pay for it later. So, yes, it might look like the the drop was abrupt for people in my life. However, in my head, I'm not dropping you. I'm just updating the read and moving accordingly.